Being a mother is hard. and actually sometimes it sucks.
This afternoon I spent two hours trying to get baby Barack to take his nap only for him to scream his lungs out. I tried leaving him to cry it out and he wouldn’t stop. I went in and rocked him. nothing. fed him. nothing. burped him. nothing.
This is such a mind fcuk! Its the most frustrating experience of my life. Sometimes he’s been crying for almost an hour and I really don’t want to be around him. Mzee is at work and won’t make it home for another hour and honestly all I want is a stiff cocktail, for my ear to stop ringing, and to not smell like a combination of poop, pee, and bad milk.
I finally gave up and now he’s quite happily kicking his legs and playing by himself. He really just did not feel like sleeping. What kind of three month old only takes one nap a day?!!
oh crap. there goes the crying again…..
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April 24, 2009 at 1:09 am
prousette
Your post made me smile indulgently, it will pass and never think of yourself as a bad mother as long as you are taking good care of the little one. He may not appreciate it and you do not know what he wants with the yells and all.
Just the other day I was in the same situation as you, a three month old who would yell for two hours non stop every single evening no matter what we did, rocking a trip to the docs, prayers. Now I look at him learning to read and I rather like the boy he has become. Hang in there.
April 24, 2009 at 1:22 am
Mwananchi Mkenya
oooh thanks for those kind words. I know that on down the line I will miss him being this size but what work it is!!
Such a test of patience.
May 6, 2009 at 2:13 am
Nakeel
Hello there. Been catching up and I say just like Pros you are never a bad mother and never put that in your mind. At this stage its good to cry and they will cry be it colics be it just wanting to cry. Very soon he will be laughing and crawling and you shall be wondering is he the one who used to cry all the time when I needed a rest?
Yes they do take one nap a day and feel nothing.
May 21, 2009 at 2:45 am
savvy08
It’s been long since I was here, trying to catch up.
I don’t think you are a bad mother, I think kids just want to cry for no reason at all. I helped my aunt take care of a two- weel old baby who only slept during the day… then he keeps you awake at night.
As for nursing, its quite natural in Kenya for mother to breast feed in public, so go for it!