honestly, I have no good reason for not having have kept this blog up. I love my community here.
Its just that life has been taking over.
I now have two full time jobs and a baby and a hubby. I’m exhausted, overwhelmed, overstretched.
And I keep running into people asking ‘how do you do it all?’
VERY BADLY
Can I scream that out loud to everyone. To all those women out there who might be tempted to take on the madness of what i’m doing. DON’T!
Its not sustainable in the long run.
The problem is that I don’t know what to drop.
I can’t quit being a mom, though I feel constantly guilty for not spending enough time with baby Barak.
I can’t quit my day job. It pays the bills and honestly, I love it.
And I can’t quit project A after spending the last five years getting it off the ground and on the verge of going big. And it feeds my soul with joy and wonder.
I feel stuck.
very very stuck.
And I’m not seeing a light at the end of the tunnel which is more scary.
Thats my honest authentic truth at the moment.
i’m still waiting to exhale.
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December 10, 2010 at 1:03 am
Mwari Wa David
I think you’re doing very well.
You shouldn’t be too hard on yourself. There is no one giving grades for how we live our lives. All the things you are doing give you joy and you are blessed to have/do things that bring you happiness. Perhaps the only thing you need to do is to rebalance your time so that what is most important receives the bigger portion of your time.
Best!
January 4, 2011 at 5:14 pm
Imran A.
I have not been here in a long time.
Set yourself free if you can’t keep the blog up for whatever reasons. Thousands of blogs have come and gone, and many will go by the end of 2012.
Why not “unstuck” (free) yourself, let go what needs to be let go or what must be shaded of from your wonderful family life, career and joyful soul.
In the meantime, stay away from the proverbial outlet of “waiting to exhale.” Most former “exhalers” have never ended up seeing light at the end of their tunnels because they have never learned ways to “exhale” apart from inhaling daily doses of toxic fumes from self inflicted world of
“I’m exhausted, overwhelmed, overstretched, underappreciated, underpaid, unloved and what have you.”
I don’t mean to patronize or belittle your current state of “unexhaled lifed” but I would sugggest that you proritize all aspects of your life. ASAP.
2012 is just around the corner and I will hated to find you singing the same old “waiting to exhale” song.
April 25, 2011 at 11:13 am
Eric Silwal
Hello There,
I happened upon your blog when trying to find an online store which might sell the Mashifta album. unfortunately no such luck. I was wondering if you want to get rid of your copy, I’d be a willing buyer. Seems the CD is out of stock in Kenya. Kindly let me know if you want to sell your copy. you can reach me @ ogu2nized@yahoo.com.
Thanks,
Eric